The Index To My Inner Thoughts

by L. Teez

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1.	Questions (Intro) Feat. Jérôme Dupuis-Cloutier 02:30	lyrics	buy track
Welcome to my inner thoughts Locked in, thoughts in a golden vault Lakeside, thinking while I'm skipping rocks And these eyes tell a story of a paradox I came across a couple complications The colour of the rainbow seems a little faded We scared of the truth ‘cuz it's always naked We eyes deep but, I just couldn't face it (Questions) Are we living a lie? Reflections of ourselves like are we living to die? (Questions) Like, how you feeling inside? It’s an everyday struggle, I'm just trying to survive (Questions) Like, are you happy or not? My answer tends to change when I'm drinking a lot (Questions) Like how you feel in your heart? Like, I don't really know, let me give it a thought It's time to roll the herb Think then I jot I be thinking of her, like whether or not And we killing the Earth, oh we making it hot We just killing each other on the screens of our phones Dying for attention, can't leave it alone She's always online and hates being alone And every time we go out, it’s like it’s all for the show And then they tell you, you the man ‘cuz you got bottles and blow And a couple Veuve Clicquot that comes with the hoes Then its Uber to the after, oh you know how it goes But the Sun was wide awake when you finally made it home Just to realize that you was always alone (Questions) Ok, now welcome to my inner thoughts (Ay, ay, ay, ay) Ok, now welcome to my inner thoughts (Ay, ay, ay, ay) Ok, now welcome to my inner thoughts (Ay, ay, ay, ay) Ok, now welcome to my inner thoughts.
2.	Boxed in 02:56	lyrics	buy track
Nine years later, new game but same player Same pen, with new paper but bringing a new flavour You can say I got it ‘cause homie I never lost it And yes, I keep it flowing like from water from your faucet Of course, I’m fucking awesome, what the fuck is all this nonsense Are we truly making progress in becoming better artists? Fuck it anyways, I did it all regardless I’m just another bee buzzing in the garden Hit ‘em when that bass drop (Ouh) You know that I got that vibe I just got my eyes on you Tell me how you feel inside Cause home is where the heart is Homie, don't get me started I dearly departed the notion of using logic To focus on a project, to reach a higher conscious Oh, just stop with that nonsense. They don’t really fuck with me (Ye, ye) I had to get it on my own They tryna put me in a box (Ye, ye) But they can never have my thoughts They don't wanna to see me win (Ye, ye) But homie, I will never lose I'm just tryna be the man (Ye, ye) But they will never understand Shit is getting complicated With all these stars and these consolations They stuck in they shit like the constipated But you gotta make moves if you wanna make it So, I built a spaceship, so you haters couldn't say shit Let’s face it, most of you rappers basic, tasteless, wasteless Me and you not related (Why?) Cause these pockets are full of aces Hit ‘em when that bass drop (Ouh) You know that I got that vibe I just got my eyes on you Tell me how you feel inside The levels to reach are higher A Johnny Cash desire Now enter the ring of fire And your soul they will acquire Unless you walk the line But we be running out of time, like They don’t really fuck with me (Ye, ye) I had to get it on my own They tryna put me in a box (Ye, ye) But they can never have my thoughts They don't wanna to see me win (Ye, ye) But homie, I will never lose I'm just tryna be the man (Ye, ye) But they will never understand
3.	Pain Feat. Lea Keeley 04:25	lyrics	buy track
Walking in no direction Just seeking for affection While others seek perfection Through a lens that seem neglected I forgot to pay attention Never listened to lessons Now I'm stuck here seconded guessing And everybody stressing Cause, uh I haven't seen ‘em in awhile That’s why I never really smile My head is stuck up in the clouds And I don’t feel like coming down Frozen hearted all alone Lately I don't feel at home These shadows always follow me And everywhere I choose to go Welcome to my train of thought There's something that you need to know That lately I’ve been seeing shit Got me feeling delusional She’s crazy but she beautiful Relationship is complicated Inner self is devastated I don’t think I’ll ever make it Out of here alive They told me no never cry and hold my feelings inside The reasons I'm getting high. You could never feel my pain You could never feel my pain Never feel my pain Never feel my pain You could never feel my pain You could never feel my pain Never feel my pain Never feel my pain The more I go the harder it gets We moving mountains These feelings are as hard as they get But who was counting? The rose petals that fell on the floor that no one wanted I picked them all up and then I made it into something Never needed your assumptions Never asked you for nothing But lately I've been on my own Walking through the mountain In the snow my heart is frozen cold Feelings that only you could know Believe me that I know them well Brought my demons to show n tell But no one ever noticed That my life was out of focus So, they took the picture anyway The rain washed all my tears away I’m numb with nothing left to say Waiting for them better days It’s always more or less the same ‘Cuz you will never feel my pain You could never feel my pain You could never feel my pain Never feel my pain Never feel my pain You could never feel my pain You could never feel my pain Never feel my pain Never feel my pain Skipping through the pages Seeking the final chapter I can see it in they faces that They don’t got the answer My life started to desolate With senses that I can't escape Assuming that you could relate Or we can leave it up to faith I'm just really hoping that you can see That I opened up my heart for you truthfully So, let's have a conversation just you and me Then she looked into my eyes so painfully You could never feel my pain You could never feel my pain Never feel my pain Never feel my pain You could never feel my pain You could never feel my pain Never feel my pain Never feel my pain
4.	Hold Me Down Feat. Lea Keeley 03:38	lyrics	buy track
You keep falling away from me You keep falling away from me You keep falling away from me You keep falling away from me Ok, I'm never really satisfied I feel stagnant, whole body paralyzed Kept looking, but couldn't find the paradigm But don't worry homie, I be doing fine This shit is introspective (Facts) But lately I feel neglected Or maybe I’m just tripping on visions of my perceptions I chose to write rhymes instead of choosing electives But, you see that was my choice Chose to do me so I can use my voice Spread some love, so I can speak my mind Hold on, let's do this one more time One more time for your mind (Word up) Two more times for your soul (They know) One more time for your mind (Word up) Two more times for your soul (They know) I just wanna chill kick back and just smoke my weed (Smoke my weed) With some real good friends on the real, oh that's all I need (It’s all I need) With the music real loud like, we tryna stay alive (Stay alive) When the bass kicks in like uh, Do you feel that vibe? I just want to know, can you hold me down? My heart belongs to you, can you show me how? I just want to know, can you hold me down? My heart belongs to you, can you show me how? Vision all blurry, oh we all in a hurry I hear the birds chirping but its only six thirty The night passes by, but the streets are still dirty In a concrete jungle, where you won't find mercy Won't find no love just a whole lot of worries And my heart made of stone, so no, you can't hurt me Walking through the valley of death, oh what a journey Here to see the sunrise but got here to early No reflections in the pond, cause the water to murky Complicated complex, tryna build a concept These words are all I got so don't take them out of context Like, how do you define the times that your running out of time When they ask you how you doing? And you say you doing fine But they look into your eye, and they know that’s it a lie But they'll never ever, ever truly know how you feeling inside So, I tell ‘em, turn the music up so I can feel alive. I just want to know, can you hold me down? My heart belongs to you, can you show me how? I just want to know, can you hold me down? My heart belongs to you, can you show me how? Time from time we can't rewind what's in the pass, baby Even though I can't let go, you got me going crazy You keep falling away from me You keep falling away from me You keep falling away from me You keep falling away from me
5.	No More Love Letters 02:48	lyrics	buy track
So like? What are we really doing? I mean I don't understand, I don't really wanna talk to him, but I do.. you know? I ain't writing no more love letters Like, I swear that I can do better I just thought that we were forever Taken by storm, then I lost her in the cold weather But she’s in my heart regardless We seeking for the light, but mostly only found the darkness Emotions on my sleeve, just to show you I ain't heartless We could have bloomed together like these flowers in the garden But I already told you, I ain't writing no more love letters I guess my pen is running out of ink My love is something that you can't measure So, go on, tell me what you really think We can talk about anything Let's stimulate the moment Focus on what important, like this lust is hella potent Got me filling up these pages, writing pass the margin I'm going through these phases while my speakers bumping Marvin They ask me why I'm sensitive, I tell ‘em I’m an artist Take it how you want to take it, I’m just being honest The first time I wrote to her, she ain't never write back Wrote her a second letter, ask her why she’s being like that Said that she’s falling in love, explained she had to fight that Because of prior history, and shit she shouldn't take back Asked me for a favor, not to write her again She said that we couldn't be lovers, she just rather be friends I ain't writing no more love letters Like I swear that I can do better I just thought that we were forever Taken by storm, then I lost her in the cold weather But she’s in my heart regardless We seeking for the light, but mostly only found the darkness Emotions on my sleeve, just to show you I ain't heartless We could have bloomed like these flowers in the garden, but…
6.	Hold On Feat. Lea Keeley 03:34	lyrics	buy track
Hold on I'm just trying to make it here I took a moment for my myself so I can make it clear I got dreams of a million dollar chandelier Failure’s my only fear, and I will never disappear Memories and souvenirs, views from the belvedere Shout to my engineer, it's been one hell of a year (Ok) From Montreal to Paris, Portugal to Tokyo then ended up in Seoul Sorry I've been busy but, I've been on the road With pen and paper, writing music on the go Oh, and no you can't stop me From the home of the Maple Leaf, and where we play hockey With frozen cold winters where, some of us are born sinners And others are born killers, that bang like gorillas I’m a real go getter, with dreams of Coachella And hella mo' cheddah, I just don't know no better, like You can never stop my grind You can never stop my grind Ima take what's mine Ima go and take what's mine I think that I lost my That I lost my mind I think that I lost my mind, Cause we be wasting so much time I think that I lost my mind Cause we be wasting so much time Time is all we have, to make these moments last Too caught up in the moment There’s nothing left holding me back Too caught up in the moment There’s nothing left holding me back Homie just wait a minute Read between the lines, I promise the truth in it Like I'm just here to set it straight Write it down and ventilate Smoke a little and mediate I’m hoping that you would relate To pictures that I illustrate Words that I orchestrate Emotions that I emulate And moments that I recreate Ok homie you can watch me break it down I just need a little soul up in my sound If you didn't know, well now you know me now I was searching for something I never found On the yellow brick road, where the journey is cold That I promise my heart froze in a blizzard with no snow Like, I'm just trying to hold on I'm just trying to hold on I'm just trying to hold on I think that I lost my mind, Cause we be wasting so much time I think that I lost my mind Cause we be wasting so much time Time is all we have to make these moments last Too caught up in the moment There’s nothing left holding me back Too caught up in the moment There’s nothing left holding me back We just tryna hold on Hold on to what we got Hold on to what we know And hold on to what we love This is The Index to my Inner thoughts Let your thoughts be known

about

Welcome to The Index to My Inner Thoughts. After releasing my first EP (The Half Full EP) I was fortunate enough to be able to tour in Asia and Europe. This EP was born in the busy bustling streets of Shibuya, Tokyo and in the filled to the rim, free flowing sidewalks of Hongdae, Seoul. Some of these songs were conceived and written in the Parisian cafes of Montmartre, in the 18ieme arrondissement, in Paris. All of my travels and experiences played a huge part in the making of this project.

I came back to Montreal a new person, with a new world view, and also a brand-new train of thought. This EP is a trip into my complexities, emotions, desires and questions.

I present to you, The Index to My Inner Thoughts.

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released September 18, 2020

Mixed by Mixed by Gee
Mastered by Sonny Black

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L. Teez Montreal, Québec

My inspiration finds its roots from many different aspects of life: our daily lives, emotions, and those little moments we all live through which are experienced differently from one individual to the next.

Anything that has the capability to make us feel, negative or positive, drives me to tell a story or to make the listener understand a certain emotion or moment through my words & poetry. ... more